Induction ahead ?!

Its funny how circumstances change your perspective on everything.

We had a slight scare last week. At the  moment I am having fetal monitoring twice a week due to the risks associated with being Diabetic.  Last week I had day of reduced fetal movement. I barely felt him move all day, dinner came and nothing! bed time came and i tried moving my tummy, playing music, drinking cold fizzy drinks. At 1.30am I called my doc and we where told to come in to the hospital.  A very silent drive 40mins into the city.  I remember thinking, if they find any kind of distress, cut me open and get him out! I was so ok with a c-sec at this point. His life, his health was paramount. I'm terrified of having a c-sec but on the way to the hospital I was calm and knew exactly what I wanted.  The good thing is as soon as they hooked me up to the monitors he kicked like crazy. Little Tyke!!

So im now 38 weeks and even though everything is looking good, we had the induction convocation at the OB today. I knew it was coming. In all honesty Im ok with it.  I would prefer to go into labor naturally but carrying him longer than 39 weeks has to many risk factors and most they cant cant control.
Am I scared? yes!  Am I a little disappointed? yes.  Having taken Bradly Method classes anything other than a natural childbirth was villainized. But I have a wonderful Douala and she helped me see that although, yes natural is better if it can be achieved. Highly specialised doctors have tools like pitocin as just that tools to help labor.

Don't get me wrong the Bradly classes where very informative, I loved the people I met there and feel more in control because of being informed. BUT!  balance is needed epically if there are risks associated with your pregnancy.  Its more against the trend of c-sec for convenience and to posh to push attitudes.  It can put you at odds with the medical field if you do not maintain an open mind and are flexible.  Each birth experience is different and you cannot control yours.  Trust me I tried with a 2 page birth plan and my Doula looked at me and said "control freak much" lol.  We modified it to 2 paragraphs.

I highly recommend a Douala above all things epically if this is your first child. 

So in a week and 3 days if I havent gone into labor I will be induced! 6th of May here we come!