Sunday, May 5, 2013


                                                                 My mother and I

While simmering away in my Clary sage and Lavndar Bath one of my final attempts to naturally induce labor my thoughts turn to the day of inducement. Only a day away now. 

I have the unwavering support of my wonderful husband who will be at my side, my constant attendant and  birth coach thanks to the information and guidance he received at our Bradly Method Classes a must for dads that want to be more involved and understand the process.

But something is missing. The presence of a maternal woman.  A mother. 

During my pregnancy the absence of my mother has hit me in way I never expected.  Now as I am about to give birth I feel it very much.  The absence of a women, a mother.  I feel I need the reassurance of experience, the understanding of a someone who has carried a child, sacrificed and given her everything push that life out and the solidarity of a women at my side. 

I have always had that maternal figure throughout my life in one from or another. When I was young it was my mother, she encouraged my creative side, birthed 9 children and became a sign of strength and endurance.  As a young adult it was Hazel who nurtured my spiritual growth and helped me heal from emotional scars. Now entering motherhood myself I feel absence of a mother figure when I yearn for it most.

It seems we never stop needing the comfort  and reassurance of a mother. Even if we think we can handle life without it, something comes along (like becoming a mother yourself) and pulls at those strings, the ones you thought you had cut years ago and reminds you of much you have to learn, how much you need guidance and how much you need that love that only a mother can give.


knitterbeal said...

Hang in there! At least you know the kind of mother you want to be (and not want to be). Aaron and you are going to be great parents. :)

Charlean said...

I'm not your mother Emily but I really love you . I has a 0 lb baby and I only weighed 145 lbs . Ha ha that was a gigantic baby . I remember it so well... You are going to do super grat and you have a whole cong of mothers that will have their hearts focused on only you tomorrow. I wish I was your mother, I would be proud to have you for a daughter. Love , hugs, prayers, all for you sweetie on your happy day tomorrow.

Charlean said...

I had a 10 lb baby . Not 0 ha ha

Barbara Labas said...

I love you guys. I'm always here for you. See you later

Jessica said...

What a sweet picture of you and your Mom! Or is it Mum?
Can't wait to see pictures of the new little squirt.

Jessica said...

Oh, I forgot something.
If you want to induce labor, go to an event tonight in your best outfit, to a really fancy place, and stand up to give a speech or something. The idea is to get into a situation where if your water broke you would be mortified. Because isn't that usually where mothers are when their water breaks? Not while at home soaking in a tub in complete privacy! :O)